Monday, June 27, 2011

Trembles. Questions. Speechless. Laughter ?

Have you ever experienced a time,
- when you're completely zoned out for a certain reason;
- you could not possibly describe the way your heart feels. it quivers. it hurts, yet it doesn't. undefined.
- you would normally only take 8 minutes to walk home, but this time, you took 15 minutes instead? you drag your feet across the ground pavement, look up at the heavy stratus clouds which slides slowly across the bright sky and think: what is this?
- your biggest fear of spiders disappear, because you're so concerned about another thing.
- you take your usual route back home, because the dark, quiet and narrow street which is filled with mentally and physically handicapped people during the day, doesn't scare you anymore, because... it just doesn't. nothing else seems to matter besides the issue that concerns you?
- the normal cold and strong breeze from outside turns warm?
- you're so spaced out you look at the street lamp and ask yourself nonexistent questions? i mean, questions.. which aren't questions. you stare at the lamp, ...and zone out. yeah.. not questions. in fact, no questions.
- you're afraid of sharing your thought with your beloved one, because you're afraid he would leave you?

your world, just turned grey. 

Monday, May 30, 2011

10 days. ♡

Stupid Norwegian hasn't gotten any better, still rainy and windy. Uff. Hope it's gonna get better when summer vacation kicks in! :( :) ..Which is on the 9th of June, 10 days time:D *countdown*
Speaking of 9th of June, there's so much happening that day. I have my final math exam which starts at 1 pm and ends at 3 pm. Piano concert at 19:00.. But I'm not sure if I'm bothered to go 'cause Stephen's graduation starts at 19:30 :/ AHHHHH *panic*
My friend, Ingrid, who moved to Texas last year is coming to Norway to visit this summer! She's gonna stay at mine for a couple of days, but unsure which dates, cause Stephen's friend's gonna stay at our place for a several days too... So gotta get that sorted before I plan anything else. :3
Oh, and another random thing, Ingrid went to Abercrombie&Fitch the other day, and on her way out, she got stopped by these people and asked if she wanted to model for them! Why can't stuff like that happen in Norway? -.- I'm so happy for her though:D and her boyfriend models for Hollister. Jesus, perfect couple much?

ANYWAYSSSSS back to my own business. *cough cough*
Things happening for the upcoming day + month
-my burfdayy:D
-2 math exams left
-school done in 10 days!
-Ingrid & Shag's visit
-Stephen's senior trip with friends (somewhere....)
-work. (.__.")
Any suggestions how I should celebrate my birthday ? :)

Ahhh I went out to Kvadrat (a mall.. apparently it's the biggest mall in Norway o.O) to return this tank top which I didn't want, stayed there for an hour or so, then headed back to Sandnes. I went into this other mall, Vågen Amfi, went into H&M, and OMFG TELESCOPIC IS ON SALE. So I got three. teehee :3
The three I bought today.. Each one was 79,50kr, x3 = 238,50kr which is.. ~ 43.9$ / 26.6£ / 30.7€.
I think it's a super deal, cause normally one would cost 179,50kr.
Do the calculations yourself :)

Left 3: bought today
Middle 3: Used up ones
Right 1: Currently using 

Gold Telescopic: Magnifies at the base of lashes + lengthens to the extreme. precision multi-comb
Telescopic Carbon Black: Extreme Lengthening Mascara + Carbon Black. Intensity Lash by Lash
Telescopic clean definition: Length + Precise Definition Mascara. High-Precision Flexible Brush
Telescopic EXPLOSION

I personally love all of them besides the explosion one,  because the ball makes my eyelashes all clumped up together, I dislike! But the other ones gives my lashes volume & length. How cool is that? I recommend these Telescopic mascaras, except they can get a bit pricey :/ That's why I usually buy a bunch when they're on sale haha :D I think the main reason why I fell straight in love with this brand is because of their flexible plastic wand. It's hard, and really does a great job at separating the lashes :)

Saturday, May 28, 2011

For Good

This is just a song that I want to share, in memory of Stephane Ngueguim, which we sang this at his memorial service today.

I've heard it said
that people come into our lives
for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
and we are lead to those
who help us most to grow
if we let them and we help them in return
Well i dont know if i believe that's true
But i know i'm who i am today
because i knew you.

Like a comet pulled from orbit as it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
halfway through the wood.
Who can say if i've been changed for the better
but, because i knew you
I have been changed for good.

It well may be
that we will never meet again in this lifetime
so let me say before we part
so much of me is made from what i learned from you
You'll be with me
like a hand print on my heart
Now whatever way our stories end
I know you have rewritten mine
by being my friend

Like a ship blown from it's mooring
by a wind off the sea
like a seed dropped by a sky bird
in a distant wood
Who can say if i've been changed for the better?
But because i knew you
because i knew you
I have been changed for good

And just to clear the air i ask forgiveness
for the things i've done you blame me for
But then i guess we know there's blame to share
And none of it seems to matter any more

Like a comet pulled from orbit
(like a ship blown from its mooring)
As it passes a sun
(By a wind off the sea)
Like a stream that meets a boulder
(Like a seed dropped by a bird)
Halfway through the wood
(in a wood)
Who can say if i've been changed for the better?
I do believe i have been changed for the better
And because i knew you
because i knew you
because i knew you,
I have been changed...
for... good.

You made such a big impact on everyone's lives, mine included.
When everyone applauded to celebrate, celebrate that you have lived, and the laughter you brought I could not hold back my tears, and cried out for your name. I knew I won't be able to see your warm smile nor hear your crazy laughs ever again, but, they will be stored in my heart. I can still feel your presence, right beside me, giving me strength in things I do. Stephane, you have no idea how much we love you.
Philippine couldn't make it to the memorial today, forgive her, but she did ask Mona to read out the speech for her. I didn't think I'd cry that much, but I did, especially when Mona started her speech by saying, "This is written from the bottom of my heart."
Oh, and Joelli played 'You raise me up' on the piano, yes, Joelli, the buff guy. :P along with the other dude. I'm sure you heard us. Man.. who would've ever thought him to be such a good piano player and a singer, his beautiful voice captured my heart immediately.. it really did.
Stephane, I hope you are in a better place now. Whenever I miss you, I'll think of this comforting poem.. :

"Do not stand at my grave and weep.
I am not there, I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn's rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush
I am swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grace and cry.
I am not there. I did not die."

No more pain.. I'll see you later buddy.
Loved you then, Love you still, Always have, & Always will. 
Continue to share that smile of yours with the angels up there. 

Friday, May 20, 2011

Too Sudden, Too Soon.

Today, was one of the worst days I've experienced in a long time.

Who could've ever known what would happen in the future? Okay, not future, let's say tomorrow. No? Okay, next hour. You think you know it? I don't.
Such is life. You think "tomorrow's just going to be an ordinary day", but really, every minute ahead of us is a mystery. One moment it could be sunny, and rainy the next.
I thank you, Stephane Nguegium, for bringing so much laughter into our science, math and geography classes; but most importantly, your smile could really turn one's day right back up no matter how harsh or shitty their day was.
You're an angel with a pure heart.
I should smile because you lived, and not cry, because you are gone. You're an influence to us all. Your strength, courage, and so much more to mention.

God saw you were getting tired
And a cure was not meant to be
So he put his arms around you
And whispered come with me
With tearful eyes we watched you
As we saw you pass away
Although we love you deeply
We could not make you stay
Your golden heart stopped beating
Hard working hands at rest
God broke our hearts to prove to us
He only takes the best.

I will miss the times you turned around in Chemistry to tap on my shoulder asking to borrow an eraser, or in a more ninja way, snatch it if I wasn't looking. I'm sorry for giving you death stares, I really didn't mean it.
I will miss the times you sat right behind me in geography, and Ms. Siddall would always tell you "Shhh STEPHANE" when you spoke a bit too loud, but she never cared if Lisa and I talked non stop. Oh, and when you spoke French to her and she pretended to know what you were on about.
You: You know?
Ms. Siddall: -nods carefully-
You: -imitates the nodding-
Ms. Siddall: No I don't know I am very sorry Stephanee!
-everyone else laughs-
Oh, and who could forget about Barbra Streisand and bus duty.
I will miss the times you rambled on about some random stuff in biology.. and Mr. Austenberg'd be like: Hmmmm no. Your reaction: AW MAN!
Gotta love that.
I will miss the times seeing you sit at the way front in physics.
Everything just won't be the same anymore.
No more laughter in the corridors, arguments with you in geography, no one who's going to snatch my eraser from me in chemistry..
I will miss the times when you always came up to Rachel and I to get that answer sheet for the past papers, and I'd always tell you: NO STEPHANE. and your reply'd always be: OKAY OKAY YOU NINJA! don't look at me like that ! stephane.. I miss you.
When we were learning about bearings.. you asked why we were learning about bears and whipped out your little dictionary, you're precious.

But that's okay.
Death leaves a heartache no one can heal,
Love leaves a memory no one can steal.
All those memories will be stored in my heart.. a special place just for you.

That smile 

Geography.. good times, good times.

You're a quiet one with a loud voice and big heart.
Unique. Special. One of a kind. 
Rest in Peace Stephane. You will be missed by us all.
My most heartfelt condolences to your family.
Thanks for everything,
                         I love you. 

P.S. Please say hi to Riccardo for me, I'm sure you two will become great friends.

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Sunday, May 15, 2011

Write me a story

Mwahhh I haven't blogged in so long, uff.
Study leave started on the 9th of May, and had two exams done. One on the 9th, and one on the 12th. 
Bad news, I still have 10 other exams. Good news is, I will have 2 tomorrow, one on Wednesday, Thursday and Friday, so that means, I will have 5 down and 5 to go:D
That weekend, Imma go to a birthday party so woot woot :)
I HATE HATE HATE morning exams. urgh. -.-"

Missing a smile? I'll give you one of mine 

Saturday, May 07, 2011

Nervous breakdown?

Shit man, my first exam starts on monday. yes. monday. ON THE NINTH OF MAY. aka this upcoming monday. I'm scared, I really am.
Panic. Panic Panic.
My brother is off at Kongeparken with his friends for this landstreffet thing, where he gets to see LUDACRIS and MADCON and FLO RIDA. I'm so jealous :'( He came home with a glow last night, it was funny. :)
I'm not bothered to describe the whole situation with the landstreffet in details, but basically it's this Norwegian tradition to party at this amusement park for the whole weekend, and a lot of big artists are gonna be there and yahhh.

Anyways, back to math. Math exam is on Monday, startin off with paper 2, and I am soooo freaking scared that I will fail or something.. Cause my parents are expecting a lot from me :/ pressure! I hope I'll do well >.< I don't remember all the formulas and shizzle, not cool. :( AND how to use the graphics calculator correctly, fml.

Tomorrow (sunday) Imma wake up at 8 just to study for maths. yes. That's my plan.


Saturday, April 30, 2011


Ahhhh it was sooo hot today! I went out in short shorts and a 'I <3 NY' tee to meet up with my guy friend to play sand volley with him, and his two other friends.
First of all. He made me wait for 15 minutes, I DISLIKE! I dislike when you have to sit there to wait for someone on the streets, and strangers who walks past stares weirdly at you and you think : zomg get me out of here OR why can't he be here already!! That got me kinda mad. But when he came in his car, I was happy again (cause he looked funny), so that's ok. He introduced me to two of his friends/neighbours/cousins something like that in the car, and my friend said they're pro at volleyball, first reaction: uhh .___. esp for someone like me who sucks at volleyball.
When we arrived, we warmed up with doing bumps and sets, but no smash cause I'm not tall enough haha.-.- so, put the smash aside.
Then, we split into two groups, my friend and I in one group, and the two other guys in another group continuing to warm up. Later onnn, my friend's friend arrived and he reminded me a bit of prince Harry HAHA and then this girl came in her jeans to play volley:P
Anywhoooo.. Since there were 6 people, we divided ourselves into two groups of three, and I was stuck in the same group as my friend the entire time seeing as I didn't know the other people who were there:) Throughout the day I realized they're all nice peopleee, but I didn't say much cause again, I don't know them, but they're nice :)
Around 4pm ish, these five other guys and a girl came and asked to play with us 'friendly match',, so we did, but I think we won most of the matches haha. Afterrrr we played three on three, three people from our team vs three people from their team. It's funny how full they were of themselves or tried to act funny on the court..
We left around 4-5pm ish (more towards 5pm), my friend got everyone in the car and this girl had to sit on the 'prince Harry's' lap cause there weren't enough seats, and nobody was willing to take middle seat on the back so I said I could haha:P Childish people, fighting over seats;P My friend dropped off the girl near her house, then he dropped me off in front of this supermarket which I live nearby.
I am so freaking jealous! My friend and the guys (I think) barbecued (is that even a word?) after he dropped me off. (I'm not even sure if the sentence makes sense)........ -.-"

I suck at volleyball, but I love it anyways because it's so fun. I got a bruise on my left arm haha:D  and I got tanner. yayyy :)

No pictures taken by myself, *lazy lazy*
Creds to Google :)

Strawberries & Sand volley & Sun = 

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Truck load of math and english

Jesus Christ. I have my first math exam on the 9th of May, *PANIC PANIC* and the teacher decides to give us a truck load of math, to help us prepare for the exam.
Things that drives me nuts:
  • Graphing calculator & its functions
  • Graphing in general which incl. slopes, mx + b = y and all that jazz
  • + a lot more :(
Things due tomorrow
  1. Test corrections (not done)
  2. Take home quiz (LOST IT)
  3. Math homework (no idea what it was)
  4. Past paper 4 (most of it done)
  5. Past paper 6 (LOST IT)
I feel great. Hopefully it's just gonna be a chill class like tuesday, OR we get a sub. I would love to get a sub just for tomorrow :(
I think I might cry. - sob sob -

Anyone who enjoys yet hate math at the same time?

Yeah. 5 English assignments, going over Much Ado About Nothing, Journey's End, Poetry and stuff.


My day has been soooo boring. Started off with a chemistry test (which I mentioned in the last entry) and was easy peasy! But of course, after I published the post, I took notes + studied for 2 hours, and studied a bit more on the school bus. After I was done with the test, I was told to sit outside the nurse's office to wait for her, but I was so scared I dragged Tizia along with me. She said I could hold her hand, but it was more like me squeezing her hand haha, she said she'd cry before me cause I squeeze too hard :P woops! Nurse Heather came after we've waited for like 5 min, and when I stepped into her room, I could hear the needle calling my name. 'Here I am WAKAKAKA' (evil face) Needles are horrible. No words could describe my hatred and fear for needles and vaccinations.
Ah, yes. I jumped out of the chair when she went to get the needle, ran away, then came back in, and she didn't notice a thing. :)
- breathe in breathe out, breathe in breathe out - Nurse Heather told me to think of nice things, so I did. Meanwhile, Tizia held my hand and said I could squeeze hers as hard as I could, but apparently what I had on my mind was too nice I forgot to squeeze her hand? lols x) BUTTT I felt the cold needle jab through my skin, into my flesh, and yuck. At least I got it over with. And no side effects 'cause I've had the vaccination before (?) don't remember getting it.
This stupid vaccination caused me to miss 15 min of math class, meh, that's okay, we were only doing past papers anyways, chill class :-)
Mmmm, english in third block.. Man, english is the worst subject ever. The class seems longer than it is!
- lunch -
And thennnnn aerobics at the end of the day! We did yoga today, my favorite; but I kept on yawning I'm sure my teacher wasn't too happy with that haha. When we had a mini break, I walked out to get some fresh air, and that was right after the blåruss egged some of the ISS people who were on the football field haha:D (smelled like manure) So happy we didn't do the yoga/sun salutation outside today!^^
Soooo I got home at 4 pm, was not motivated to do anything, so I sat there watching cartoon with my little brother haha (though I'm supposed to be studying for my IGCSEs -.-''). When my mom headed out with Edward, I was left home aloneeee, so I played piano for 2 hours:D Chill max. After? Back to TV. Then dinner. Then Facebook haha. I got so much to do it's not even funny .___. 3 english assignments and math past paper, ufff !! *note that I'm still not motivated to do any work*

I mentioned something about RUSS a bit above, let me explain what Russ is. Actually no, that'd take me days to explain. Go to wiki :)
=> <=
If you've checked out Wikipedia and still don't get what Russ is, comment below and I will explain :) But forgive me if I do not write in well formulated paragraphs and my excitement over Russ haha. xP

Weee! My brother is still in England due to his IB course thingy, but he gets back tomorrow night. Since he's a Russ this year, and is currently not present in the house, I asked him if I could draw on his pants and he said yes! :D :D :D :D
as long as I : IKKJE FUCK UP
which means, don't fuck up. Pftttt me? Never ;P
Stephen painted these.. :
 Hahaha I lol'd at Mr. Lee! Mr. Lee are cup noodles in Norway. Mr. Lee on Mr. Li's pants:p
Herro Kitty! Charlotte's ideas. hahaa

The ones I sketched today.. (a few hours ago):

Shades. Was gonna write:
But didn't... no, not yet ;) In case Stephen Ri doesn't like 'em.

Because he let me doodle.
Popcorn is on the list just cause it was easy to draw:D totally matches his childish personality at times :-)


Because all Asians should know who Shin Chan is :'D
If you don't, you should be ashamed of yourself! :O

Shin Chan in cantooo. Pretty sure my parents were impressed (sarcasm)

Because I grew up with Pac Man :')

What else is on the list? 
To be honest, tons! There's a lot more which I wanna draw, but I'm not sure if he'd like them or not, seeing as he's a guy and we have very different tastes. But you knoww, I drew those in pencil, so all he gotta do is grab an eraser and -erase erase erase- if he doesn't like 'em! 
  1. Totoro ! <-- MEGA LIKE:D
  2. Colorful bubbles
  3. Walking beer bottles, but it's inappropriate for school >:( maybe I should draw root beer instead then;) I mean, root beer is not beer? :)
  4. So on and so forth.
These are just a few more things I'd like to add on his pants (listed above), but if they were mine (which I would receive in 2 years) I would make mine so much more better haha :)
Ain't gonna list them, sorry ;)
Goodnight xxx

p.s. note that this note was supposed to be published on tuesday, but I took too long to type this entry ;P

Monday, April 25, 2011

School tomorrow . . .

Yeah.. the title says it all. School tomorrow, urgh. Nothing special happened today. I biked to work at 14:00, and got off at 19:00.
Oh and yes, a few days ago, my friend asked if I studied at all for the past days, and I said, "Psht hell yeah, otherwise I'm gonna fail my exams! And then Asian mama and papa won't be too happy and would most likely  throw me out of the house!" "Erm no.. I meant the chemistry test." Oh right. We have a chemistry test first day after the break, of course.. -looks for chem book and notes-
Smart Asian, right?
So. I have my test tomorrow, and I left my stuff at school, so far so BAD. And my new revision books don't really explain how dyes and fertilizers work. I feel great.
I believe I can fly.

Nahhhh after I panicked for days and days I finally nagged my dear friend, Tizia, to send me some of her notes today. Which she did. Hope I'll pass my test tomorrow! :S

Help .___.''

I refuse to wake up in 7 hours.

Saturday, April 23, 2011

Life goes on

Today, I was supposed to be doing some revision. You heard me, revision. More revision. But I got bored after a several minutes, could not concentrate at all! :@ Therefore I decided to experiment with the Canon 450D rest of the time :)<3
I came across this girl's blog, and in her most recent entry, it was about her grandfather's death. At that very moment, I thought of my friend, who died earlier on in January. I thought I was over his death already, but I wasn't. I do miss him, but I don't cry no more; 'cause when I do feel like crying, I think:

We didn't lose a person, we gained an angel.
Missing you, my friend x

Deformed bread hearts <3

 I am quite amazed at what technology can do nowadays.
Cameras, and internet
Mom left me 4 slices of home made swiss roll before the family ditched me today! Ate 2, then realized maybe I should take a picture of the rolls before I ate the rest. NOM NOM NOM. x)

The sunset was beautiful tonight, but looked better in real life though :/


Friday, April 22, 2011


Instead of locking myself up in the house and face a pile of revision books for hours and hours, I decided to join my family to ski in Tjørhomfjellet (they asked me if I wanted to go earlier on of the week, but I said no 'cause I wanted to study). Tjørhom is a nice ski center located in Sirdal, and is the only ski center with big chairlifts. We left the house at around 9-10ish, and arrived at 11ish.
When we got there, it turned out that there were other a bunch of other Chinese families other than my cousin's, these two other Tang's, and Ho's HAHA. When you're at the top of the small hill, you look down, and BAM, a group of Chinese bundled up all together. I laugh.

Creds to Google.
This' a picture of the small hill at Tjørhomfjellet.

 We all thought it was gonna be chilly today (didn't check weather beforehand), but no, the weather in Sirdal turned out to be really lovely! T'was sunny and warm all along with barely any wind :D When we left at 4pm ish, it was 16 degrees Celsius, so I'm guessing it was something around 18-20 in the afternoon :) <-- I had a sudden urge to lay down and tan at that moment.
We got home at 6ish 'cause we stopped at some restaurant on our way back, but we ended up not eating anything cause there wasn't anything good on the menu :)

Thursday, April 21, 2011

Home alone : Revision

So today, I stayed home to revise for my IGCSEs, which are coming up in about two weeks! :O
Meanwhile, my parents and little brother went to my uncle's to celebrate Easter. The kids biked during the day, and ate SUSHI (I'm so freaking jealous) later.

I ordered these revision books last week (I think) and they arrived yesterday! I had to pick them up from the post office seeing as they didn't fit in the mailbox. 
This huge pile of revision books make me not want to study.
The black ones are ca. 250 pgs each, and reddish brown one with only 100 pgs.
Sooo, I got to like.. read through 1350 pgs?! I joke, I don't think I'm bothered to read through the English revision book. I don't even know why I ordered it in the first place. 
250 pgs off the list!
Okay okay, so total of 1150 pgs then :) ....still a lot.

This is what I found in the freezer haha:)
I had to call my mom to make sure I didn't do anything wrong or stupid that would mess up my lunch.

Practiced piano for a bit since I got bored of revising:)

This is what I make when I'm home alone, my favorite food at all times, spaghetti carbonara :D Quick and easy!

The weather was beauuutiful today! I could've gone out to do something else instead, since my family was out anyways. Oh no wait, it's Easter, all the shops are closed in Norway, hurray. Therefore, I stayed in to study. Hurray again. 
These two pictures got taken from inside the kitchen window 'cause I wasn't bothered to walk out to get better/prettier pictures in my pajamas haha:)
Lazy, I know.

Overall, it was a pretty chill day at home, but kinda boring too. Left my laptop on Facebook most of the time during revising x) Oh, and of course, music.

Happy Easter 

The smell of spring

You know it's spring when cobwebs are building up outside your window corners, hard working little ants busy looking for food, you're surrounded by bees and flies wherever you go, the sun is shining, sky is clear, and the weather is finally getting warmer, warm enough to go to the beach with tees and shorts.

Sola beach with Tizia :)

Hallelujah, it's spring